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Double The Agony Double The Ecstasy

Last updated on March 7th, 2010 at 11:34 am

I received another rejection letter.

So instead of crying silently, I am kvetching (Yiddish for complaining) to the world.  It is the third event this year I applied to and have been rejected from.

I keep hoping this process gets easier but so far is has not.  It is painful in more than one way. It is painful because every time I apply to one of these shows it takes time to complete their applications, time to make select images, make discs and money for the jury fee.

Money I do not have.

I do not mind only owning two pairs of shoes or only getting my hair cut twice a year, but to be rejected and pay for it is frustrating.  This frustration is followed by a loud “WHOSHHHHH” as my confidence deflates.

The effects of last year’s marriage crises has made me more vulnerable.  I physically feel like I aged ten years in one.  Somehow this feeling of rejection gets all wrapped up in all my other emotional shortcomings.  If I throw in some thoughts about the deflating economy, I can almost go comatose.

So here I am at 38 wanting to be an international artist.  Am I insane?

At this moment I find myself thinking about the book “Agony and the Ecstasy“.  I realize I have it a little easier then Michelangelo, who physically went to the quarries and cut out the marble in order to create.  I know for all the agony I might feel at this moment, it does not compare to the ecstasy of a glorious painting day.

Storms always pass.

Wendy

(Wendy’s dream is still to become a influential international artist, but she left 8 Women Dream in March of 2010 to complete grad school.  She is still a strong supporter of 8 Women Dream and you will see her in the comments on the blog.)

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